HATERS GONNA HATE BITCH

2012-01-30T12:03:00.000-08:00

Friday night and I need a fight
My motorcycle and a switchblade knife
Handful of grease in my hair feels right
But what I need to make me tight are those

Girls, Girls, Girls
Long legs and burgundy lips
Girls,Girls, Girls
Dancin' down on Sunset Strip
Girls, Girls, Girls
Red lips, fingertips

Trick or treat-sweet to eat
On Halloween and New Year's Eve
Yankee girls ya just can't be beat
But they're the best when they're off their feet

Girls, Girls, Girls
At the Dollhouse in Ft. Lauderdale
Girls, Girls. Girls
Rocking in Atlanta at Tattletails
Girls, Girls, Girls
Raising Hell in the 7th Veil
Have you read the news
In the Soho Tribune
Ya know she did me
Well then she broke my heart

I'm such a good good boy
I just need a new toy
I tell ya what, girl
Dance for me, I'll keep you overemployed
Just tell me a story
You know the one I mean

Crazy Horse, Paris, France
Forgot the names, remember romance
I got the photos, a ménage à trois
Musta broke those Frenchies laws with those

Girls, Girls, Girls
Body Shop and the Marble Arch
Girls, Girls, Girls
Tropicana's where I lost my heart

Girls, Girls, Girls

IMY, BSW

2012-01-30T10:24:00.000-08:00

Misery likes company, I like the way that sounds
I've been trying to find the meaning, so I can write it down
Staring out the window, it's such a long way down
I'd like to jump, but I'm afraid to hit the ground

I can't write a love song the way I feel today
I can't sing no song of hope, I got nothing to say
Life is feeling kind of strange, since you went away
I sing this song to you wherever you are
As my guitar lies bleeding in my arms

I'm tired of watching TV, it makes me ant to scream
Outside the world is burning, man it's so hard to belive
Each day you know you're dying from the cradle to the grave
I get so numb sometimes, that I can't feel the pain

I can't write a love song the way I feel today
I can't sing no song of hope I've got nothing to say
Life is feeling kind of strange, it's strange enough these days
I send this song to you, whoever you are
As my guitar lies bleeding in my arms

Staring at the paper, I don't know what to write
I'll have my last cigarette-well, turn out the lights
Maybe tomorrow I'll fell a different way
But here im my delusion , I don't know what to say

I never told anyone about my life beside you.

2012-01-19T10:14:00.000-08:00

Alot people look upon me,

Call me God cause I get laid often?

Call me rich cause i got a shop?

Call me cool cause im cool?

I'm not like those kids who are born to be like this.

I work hard, and im not afraid to take stand.

and METAL SAVE MY LIFE.

In primary school, and secondary school I'm consistently being bullied by my friends/classmate.
I am just a weirdo to many of them but looks who banging different chick almost every different night, who is successful now?

During my elementary school, I am always the one that being bullied untill primary 6, when i took my stand and people respected me.
Oh well, High school / secondary school is like fucking fucked up for me man.
Im labelled as weirdo and fucked up kid and shit, cause the way i talk sense not just about dota and maple ..
thats why Agares introduce me to...metal.
Im not really hardcore in to this shit , im into rap music, Bboy when im 13-14...
but when im 15 i reached my rock bottom baby.

My 15 years old& 16 years old life...
really hard...
It was the rock bottom of my life...
I dressed like a weirdo , a non conformist...

I borrowed money to go to Palin Art school, a few hundred bucks from people and my saving to study what i want , and i need to keep it as a secret to my parents till now, cause they hate me studying fashion and stuff.
And I had a major depression and spent few hundred bucks going to my psychiatrist as well as studying
Everyday, I only eat bread but Im really truly happy :) At least my teacher, recognized me as someone worth teaching.
but because of im colorblind i couldn't go to TP ADM...wish had always been my dream..

I got no one to talk to during then... I don't really have friends at that time.
Thats the time, I am really in to heavy metal And Japanese visual Rock ,
Like poison, Skid row, X japan, GazettE, Motley Crue, GnR.. and shit and...Marilyn Manson.
No one could understand me, beside music.. beside Metal even till now.

I don't expect anyone to understand me, but those that understand me love me. those that dont start to hate.

This is not even 5% of what i been through, as i had been through much worse.
Find a something that can make you happy. Mine is her and what i left now
Rock N roll

2012-01-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

I am reading Discussion on Youth (again)
Like that time i broke up with jiaying , I also read it.

It's a book from my mentor, Daisaku Ikeda, A great man with a great vision .
well, thats about it.

What I have been up to in my life.
I take quite a while to heal, probably a year or so?
Y'know everyone judge,
I don't look like someone who read , but I do.
I don't look like someone that will grieve about girl, but i do.

Who cares.
I rather be hated for who i am, than loved for who i am not.

I'm alright, thank you for any concern.

FUCK MAINSTREAM

2012-01-04T15:34:00.000-08:00

I CUT MY HAIR LIKE THIS MUAHAHAHAHA,

FUCK YOU ALL HIPSTER, GOING OPEN HOUSE NOW !

My once-adorable ex gf favourite pose <3

okay ciao. seriously, idk why i feel very happy :)

I don't know why you want this.

2012-01-03T12:05:00.001-08:00

If you still reading this, let me know.

I don't understand the 2 weeks shit yknow.

I could had been the one that bring you to see the zoo.
I could had been the one that bring you to see the doctor.

Seriously, fuck the 2 weeks thing.

Sorry but i really can't say .

2012-01-01T09:04:00.000-08:00

I got alot in my mind, wanting to tell you but it's okay :)

dec30th.

2011-12-31T01:52:00.000-08:00

I can't blog about dec 31, cause ill be slaving to my grind in my shop

I was at work, Claudia came to meet me.

Had dinner together and chit chatted for awhile, been quite sometime''

I know her idk 6 years or more already, time flies.

After that Gina came my shop to eat icecream with her friends.

Thank you for the muffin again ! So nice of her anyway.

Nothing much to talk about, boring night actually.

So good bye everything

Fuck 2011.

2011-12-31T01:47:00.000-08:00

I had the best 5 month in my whole life.
even before 02.08.11

I never thought i will love someone that much, but things doesn't end well.
She want her way, & I just not capable of giving her...
So , yeah.

everything you had done, i really appreciated it. maybe next time we will love each other again

"Move on. turn it off." - Little sis

I don't know why i can miss a person so much

2011-12-30T13:43:00.000-08:00

Maybe you are reading this, maybe you are not.

I guess, if that day i gave you that break you want, we might not end this way.
Maybe if i really leave you alone, maybe you will be happier.
Maybe i just want to love you.
I am really sorry, for what happen and everything.

"Loving you is never a wrong choice, cause it's never a choice. It's something I can't control and it just happened"

"Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you" -bon Jovi

If the love that I got for you is gone
And if the river I've cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yea, I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feelin' so strong is the reason I'm holdin' on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song

i always thought we gonna watch we bought a zoo together, thats why i nv watch with anyone or will watch with anyone

Maybe I'm the selfish one.

2011-12-29T23:38:00.000-08:00

I got nothing to say anymore..

but the same thing, i love you and only you before.

I seriously had enough.

2011-12-29T01:33:00.000-08:00

After we broke up, I really trying fucking hard to give my fucking best.
Or at least to be a friend BUT are you trying?

The whole conversation between me and Jiahui

"Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF
Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF
Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF
Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF
Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF
Me: I miss her still
Jh: FUCKING TURN IT OFF"

By mervyn.

thats really how i feel

Arrow to the knee (Original)

2011-12-27T21:59:00.000-08:00

2011-12-25T01:30:00.000-08:00

I USED TO BE A PLAYER, UNTILL I TOOK AN CUPID ARROW IN MY HEART.

THIS IS OUR LOVE STORY IN RAGE COMIC

just a rage comic for my shop

2011-12-24T08:46:00.001-08:00

2011-12-24T08:23:00.000-08:00

I THOUGHT WE PROMISE TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER ON XMAS

but i guess you enjoyed ur x'mas....alot :)

Thank you cassandra fro ur present :)

2011-12-23T13:51:00.000-08:00

"Hello again, it’s you and me
Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life’s mysteries.
How’s your life, it’s been a while
God it’s good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave.

If you don’t know if you should stay
If you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just, breathe there’s no where else tonight we should be-
You wanna make a memory.

I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had
It’s bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing, I don’t wanna ask.

If you go now, I’ll understand
If you stay, hey, I got a plan
You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You could sing a melody to me
And I could write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory."

2011-12-23T06:08:00.000-08:00

"I'm not gonna tell you it's easy, but I'm gonna tell you it's worth it"

"The good times of today,
are the sad thoughts
of tommorow"

- Bob Marley 1945-1981

"I enjoyed my life when I had nothing...
and kinda like the idea of just being happy with me" maybe.
- Joey Ramone
1951-2001

"Time you enjoy wasted,
was not wasted."

-John Lennon

"I don't usually love, but when i do.
It's forever"
- Snape

"It's only after we've lost everything, that we are free to do anything
- Fight Club"

"You are the worst guy I ever heard of " Random Girl
"Well, at least you heard about me " - Me

"My pain may be the reason for somebody's laugh.
But my laugh must never be the reason for somebody's pain"
-Charlie Chaplin

"I used to be foreveralone , untill i took a cupid arrow to the knee."
- Miya

" I would rather be hated for who I am, than be loved for I am not"
- Kurt Cobain

"I believed in everything until it's proven, So i believe in faries, dragon, Dragon born and Arrow in the knee,
It all exist,even it's in your mind. Who's to say that dream and nightmare ain't real as here as now"

" The truth is everyone's gonna hurt you, You just need to find the right one to suffer with"
-Bob Marley

"If you living your LIFE without giving a F, you are only living a LI[]E."

"Never try never know, Lagi try lagi know" - Miya

Finally I ate something today, because i saw you.
I really hope you like my roses for you, Thank you for your card.

xoxo, Miya

2011-12-22T06:43:00.000-08:00

I haven't been myself really...
But i don't want you to worry..

I'm not sure im selfish or what.. yes i am happy that you are happy.
I'm afraid you become so happy that you forgot about me, so happy you don't need me anymore...
i am afraid yes i am, cause i really want you back..
Your seem happy in twitter... i just feel you forgot about us.
Will you still love me, after a month?
will you still miss me , after a month?
Will you still want me, after a month?

A month after , next year a fresh new start... being back with you i really hope.
I want you back.. but i want you be happy with me again.

Just like o'times.. :)
today the FA thomas or something the AMS guy u told me...
came to my shop HAHAH, the thumb thing you remember?
and is aw a guy with troll face asking baout 9gag and i showed him!
hahaha
Im not getting better but at least occupied,, work 2 jobs in between ...

New years eve i watched again.. just now with myself..
cried throughout the movie , Nubzxz right?
*forever alone* level 99
Im alright at least i can joke.

Yesterday , you told me im sucha turnoff...really make me.. sad alot....more than sad.
I really hope dec 31 11, u will give me another chance.
Hope you recieve my roses for you.

#NOWPLAYING I'll be there for you.
hahahah....oh well

2011-12-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

WOAH!

VERY LONG NEVER BLOG ALREADY!!!

Don't know who is reading, don't care.

I met this girl this year,

Her name is sandy, she is really lovely and all.
But I am so sorry that i broke her heart for being a douche bag !!!!
Im gonna try to win her back . Yes i am going to.

I learnt alot, No one is gonna give u chance, unless you change.
So I will :)

I can see you are happy now, gimme me sometime, i will make you happier with me.
You got nothing to lose and we will have it all

"Baby, I love you

I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know...
That everything you do,
Is super fuckin' cute
And I can't stand it

I've been searching for
A girl that's just like you
Cause I know
That your heart is true

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know...
That everything you do,
Is super duper cute
And I can't stand it

Let's sell all our shit,
And run away
To sail the ocean blue
Then you'll know,
That my heart is true yeah

You, you got me where you want me

Cause I'll do anything to please you
Just to make it through...
Another year

You, I saw you across the room
And I knew that this was gonna
Blossom into something beautiful.
You're beautiful."

THIS IS FOR YOU

very tired right now.

I LOVE U BABY!

2011-10-23T11:08:00.000-07:00

Hey what sup guys,

Doubt any fuckheads will read my blog but who cares man.
If hate it, DONT READ IT BITCH.

Woah its already fucking octobeiber season man, so HELLA BOO YEAH BITCH
Oct 2011 it had been really awesome,

Got a pretty cute girlfriend right now, so pretty loyal to her.
I'm not sure going back to the game or not but i guess not for now.

ALRIGHT NUMBNUTSZXS,

BORED, HERE IS 5 THINGS A GUY/GIRL SHOULD DO.
1.
If you are born in 1980-1993?
You should know this guy,

UH HUH, YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHERHOOD SPIDERMAN
So check out this link here, Your spiderman fetish done.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheWebOfTheSpider

2.GO TO WWW.9GAGS.COM, IM SERIOUS

3. GET A FUCKING KITTEN.
YOU GUYS SHOULD CHECK OUT MY KITTEN, His name is ninja.
A Peekture of him

FUCK YEAH, THIS IS MY KITTEN, NICE TO MEAT CHUU

4. If you are Fat and ugly, groom yourself a little.
Need help with fashion, go here
www.lookbook.nu

everything you want, right here.

5.

Stop listening to crap music, THIS IS ONE BAND YOU SHOULD CHECK THE FUCK OUT,
THEY ARE SKID ROW , with sebastian Bach.
Best song, 18& life
THEY ARE SICK

Stay awesome , stay brutal, stay Hardcore.
BAH